TheRed-JumpingSpider

Said i was going to do a comic this year, but back then i didnt know what "AP Euro" meant LOL. But this year im doing a lot of portraits and paintings. Less manga stuff but ill get on that though.

Because i feel happy i made this. This journal is all about my personal life not art. So you dont have to read if you dont care. But if you do care, go ahead im not stopping you


Blarg, garg, Doht Fhaah, imma eat ur babies, yo, nom nom nom, munch munch,imma, o rly?, a-goochi-goochi-goo likes you!, ahlo, and ahloha.

So yes, this year is so far a great year. I've been able to break many boundaries of thinking I can't or that it just won't happen. Though it was a extremely shaky in the beginning, I've managed to meet a lot of interesting people this year. Really actually talk to them and become friends. A lot of people I really didn't expect ever even talking to. Now instead of thinking that it just wont happen, I'm making it happen to my according to the best of my effort. It's a year of change for me. Its the closest I've felt ive been to 7th grade(my best year I've had), except it may be better...

The secret to 7th grade's happiness. Were the friends I was with. More like a family, the people you truly care about, who truly care about you. There was also trials to see what was best for me and I utilized what it was. I felt that life could've get worse when it was so stable. There was no possibility of losing: Only of gaining. There were so many trips we had together. I had a great time with great memories with great people. Gifts, Jokes, People. Forever. In my head. <3

Now it's my 10th grade year. Yes, the secret to happiness is the friends and people your with and the memories you keep: Family again. Yeah but now i know life can get worse. Thats just how life is. Win some, you lose some. Also my brother and me are tight now. Hahah i can tell him about cute guys and he'll be like w/e. But the thing thats great about now, is that when i know things will go bad and i fall, I wont be choking on the dirt. Instead i'll have my Family choking on the dirt with me and us choking on each others dirt...ew...Unlike 7th grade where i believed there were restrictions and that sometimes, certain events cant happen because of my personality, now i make my own events where i know i wont be stuck at home doing whatever. Also this year i recognized one of by greatest fears. Being forgotten by those you truly care about. In actuality it doesn't matter if someone forgets you. It matters if you spend your time caring, and the feeling wasn't mutual. Its a scary feeling really. Like the world is crushing and if nothing happens your going to be lost. But that was the beggining of this year, now its great. Trumverats are beautiful. Friends are beautiful. Events are beautiful. Life is beautiful. Love is great....sound like a hippie lol. But im happy. There is a song in my heart and it links to the songs of others. Beautiful :')

So School is coming up >.<
I know that the first month is gunna be rough for me...

Anywho, im planning on starting a comic this year out of these choices dont steal ideas!:

1. InnerChild- Vampire has lost a big part of what keeps him sane, his childhood, so in order to relearn childhood values he has a human boy slowly teach him in his journeys.

2. Clan Azeriah- Goverment controls everything its time for the zombies to fight back XD (i like this one)

3. Some Drama Story Crap, darn life lol

4. Hidden Neighbor- Girl has a neighbor she has no clue what he looks like, only his age and bright voice and he helps her with school stuff, she starts falling for him then a goth looking kid comes to her school depressed but a wonderful actor and she falls for him too. With the dance comming soon and emotions rising and all that crap, yada yada who knows what will happen

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This story is probably going to happen in a few more years when i can make it look awesome, cuz ultimately this is the ONE comic i want to make extremely awesome

Kent Series- Near his grandma's grave Kent finds a medalion that is a 50% poison infection preventer, poisons include: mushrooms, gasses, bug poisons; snake, vampire, and werewolf venom. XD thats it all i tell you
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oh yeah if your wondering why im not doing anymore photoshop stuff, its because my wacom and photoshop were uninstalled when my comp crashed and i lost the code (DARN IT LOL) should have said that about a year ago... so only pencil for now and maybe some paintings/chalk, just non comp stuff
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Rant time, exit this journal if you dont want to hear me mad right now that includes you with the red shirt, still reading? No stop it, before i eat you.

~Anyway~

Maybe its me... but i think when you feel like you can actually help or make an accomplishment and someone flat out says it be better if you didnt, or that you cant do anything, that someone would feel quite upset... maybe its just me.... >.<;

ok to sum it up, my life as of the moment sucks. I seriously wonder why its me -_-'''
so thats why im going to start all over maybe stop being part of this cycle of people hate because yaddah yaddah, next year im going to be chilling with people who think guys are icky (except asian models XD)calm life, no drama. Hopefully the crap i get will lessen and he'll leave me alone, hopefully i can start over on a smoother road...hopefully

Since its winter break Ive been drawing and actually remembering to scan my drawing and post them up here (gosh i posted some drawings from 8th grade summer @_@) I'm going to try to add new drawings but I'm afraid i cant do anything digital since my comp went crazy and uninstalled everything and i lost the codes for my photoshop stuff and my wacom pretty lame but I'm happy doing pencil drawings (some stuff i cant scan because its too big so yeah)

Well, I was tired of seeing the journal from June every time i logged on. The journal was too long and it seemed old. So I decided, hey, why not update your journal and tell about how high school is doing. So high school is being different. Now that i can have two electives I'm taking art this year (cant give up band XD). In that class it is really dull because the art teacher doesn't really teach... he gives us an assignment and yeah that's it.

Band on the other hand has been treating me well, i though the band teacher wasn't sure who i was ( 100+ students) but then he mentioned me in his other classes so i know I'm known.

Welp that's pretteh much it...

ok my friend was reading this and they thought that i liked someone from my prev journal which was like....a long time ago *cough* Bernie *cough*. Yup and Im going to be 9th grader soon and you knwo what that means!...well i dont but oh well
Taken from Featherbrained-flute


1) Name: Bernadette
2) Name Backwards: Ettedanreb (dont see how that is useful...)
3) Saint Bernadette
4) Does your name mean anything?: idk
5) Nick Name(s): bernie, barnie, bernz, bernadettee, bernita, bobert, barnz, barnz and nobles, bob, burn to death, and purina
6) Screen Name(s): TheRed_JumpingSpider, BigSushiDoughnut
7) Date Of Birth: March 6 1994
8) Place of Birth: a hospital
9) Nationality: Asian(Filipino)
10) Current Location: Planet earth
11) Religion: Catholic
12) Height: 5’
13) Shoe Size: 7.5
14) Hair colour: dark brown
15) Eye colour: dark brown
16) What do you look like?:An asian
17) Innie or Outie?: innie
18) Righty, Lefty, Ambidextrous: LEFTIES ROCK
19) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?:...um what could be "other"? straight
20) Best friends : dont have a best friend, everyone is my best friend!
21) Best friend you trust the most:This isnt a nice thing to answer
22) Best friends {your sex}: i dont want to name the whole world
23) Best friends of the opposite sexhillip Corbin Peter Bernard John
24) Best Bud(s): EVERYONE!!!!
25) Boyfriend / Girlfriend:I have numerous boys who are friends and girls who are friends
26) Crush: Do you expect me to say it hear, they might read *looks around*
27) Parent(s): Yum i like eggs!
28) Worst Enemy: ME(EMO)JK, dont have one
29) Funniest friend: Peter
31) Advice Friend: My cousin Alyssa
32) Loudest Friend: Maya
33) Person you cry with: I only cry when I'm with family, and i dont cry with people
34) Any sisters: no.
35) Any brothers: 2 of them
36) Any pets: birds
37) A Disease: yes i do, i have rabies..0.o'''
38) A Pager: nope
39) A mp3 player/iPod: not yet, in a few days
40) A laptop: none. no
41) Gaming platform ie nintendo/xbox: Gamecube, nintendo64, nintendo ds, xbox, xbox360,computer, dreamcast ps, ps2
42) Surround sound: ?
43) A Personal phone line: ....
44) A Cell phone: yes
45) A Lava lamp: no
46) A Pool or hot tub: yes, in my parents room
47) A Car: no

Describe Your...

48) Personality: I like being random, it lets you know a lot of people and nice people too
49) Driving: i am too young sir!
50) Car or one you want: a big one
51) Room: Roomy
52) What’s missing?: money
54) Bed: queen and
55) Relationship with your parent(s): I love them
Do You...

56) Believe in yourself: most of the time: most of the time
57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: No because many people can be jerks w/o you knowing
58) Consider yourself a good listener?: what? jk! Yes
60) Get along with your parents: mhmm! I love my mama and papa
61) Save your e-mail conversations: i save some aim convos
62) Pray: yes, i always ask guidance
63) Believe in reincarnation: No
64) Like to make fun of people: When they are my friends and its ok (or else i would get slapped and that wouldnt be nice)
65) Like to talk on the phone: If im talking to a certain person
66) Like to eat?: when im hungry and tired
67) Like to drive: Im a little young
68) Get motion sickness: not really
69) Eat the stems of broccoli: yes
70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: No
71) Dream in color: yes, often its dull
72) Type with your fingers on home row: my bff jill
73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: yes, i got it as a gift
74) Right next to you: a mouse
75) On the walls of your room: posters of chinese people i dont know and stars
76) On your mouse pad: dont have one
77) Your dream car: Dont really have one, as long as its good
78) Your dream date: ...
79) Your dream honeymoon spot: ...
80) Your dream husband/wife: ...i like eggs
81) Your bedtime: 10-12
82) Under your bed: Dead People
83) The single most important question:  Do people judge people more on looks than personality
84) Your bad time of the day: 5-9
85) Your worst fear(s): getting hit by a car, abd being threatened with a knife
86) The weather like: Hot and too many bugs.
87) The time: 3:42PM how is this relavent?
88) The date?: June 16
89) The best trick you ever played on someone: Ok this is kinda long you dont have to read it

...Once there was a girl....let's call her.....Celeste? Anyway, Celeste had a friend....let's call her......Gem? Okay. One day, Gem had stolen Celeste's favorite pendant and was running around with it. So Celeste grabbed Gem's drawing folder and flipped to the page where Gem kept her money. But instead of money, found a folded sticky note that had the words "To (Gem's crush's name.....let's call him Justin) Justin" on it. Celeste's mouth twisted into an evil grin. She said, "Gem! Give me back the pendant or else I will read this out loud!!" Gem looked scared for a second, then smiled, and said "Please, no Celeste! Don't read it!" Celeste's malificent smile grew wider as she said "Give me back the pendant then." Gem looked at the pendant, then at the note, then at Celeste and said, "No." So Celeste pryed apart the note, opened her mouth to read it, and froze. Then her face turned bright red and she began to laugh hysterically, having to sit down to keep from falling over. Gem was cracking up as well. Celeste, still laughing, sealed the note, stuffed it in the folder, and grabbed the pendant, all without reading it out loud. Why? Because the note said, in Gem's scrawling hand: Dont even try it Celeste

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: fish head and brain, and cow tongue
91) Your Theme Song: hmmmm ill think about it...maybe technicolor eyes
92) The hardest thing about growing up: the fact that things are more complicated then they were when we were little
93) Your funniest experience: see the prank that i did.
94) Your scariest moment: well usually they are associated with dreams, and me dying and not being able to breath
95) The silliest thing you've ever said: last thing i remember was when someone walked out of the room that had the school running, and i said "It looked like that dude came out of the closet"
96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex: put my hair in my face and made myself look similar to the ring girl
97) The scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s): While we were changing on the bus and we saw one of the guys changing on the bus and they were WHITE
98) The worst feeling in the world: Having everyone you've ever liked, like ur best friend, and your friend would joke about it like it was nothing and that getting people to like you was a drag
99) The best feeling in the world: When someone likes you for who you are, and you like talking and being with them. And not being left out